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15 August, 2016
August 15, 2016
I’ve been feeling a real shift in my blog + life lately and in the effort of always being open with those who take the time to read my blog I wanted to share why my scheduled posts seem a bit more chaotic and why I’ve been a bit MIA.
This post has been a long time coming. Though every time I sat down to write it I clammed up. The whole sharing my feelings and putting myself out there has never been my style… I’m much more content keeping to myself.
Still… I don’t want this little space to only look pretty and be completely without heart. A well lit photo doesn’t mean a perfectly lived life.
As the summer months had been winding down I started to feel a bit worried about where my life is going. Which I’m guessing is pretty normal for the twenty something year old person who maybe is not following her/his passion in life. And with that I’ve been tossing around possible new career ideas.
I really had no idea and to be truthful I’ve day dreamed about all of those options as a possible career move for me. But of course, as with most people, I’m the first person to knock down my own dreams.
My parents are literally my favorite people in this world and they supplied me the opportunity to study at college for four full years and to not use the degree I got makes me so nervous… I know plenty of others who don’t follow their degree so I know it’s not totally unheard of, but ‘Engineer’ just doesn’t spell out the greatest pre-req for any of those careers.
And so began my panic.
Every time I sat down to write a blog post I asked myself “why am I writing this?” Which is generally a question I think should be asked as it means I’m keeping my tirelessly patient audience in mind, but I went to the extreme. As in WHY will this change the world? Well, news flash – none of my posts will change the world. Or it’s very unlikely. And so my sporadic posting, commenting back and email returns ensued along with a healthy dose of anxiety.
^^ Pinterest always knows what I need
While I would love to say that all my panic has subsided and I know exactly what I’m going to do with my life, that couldn’t be farther from the truth. Instead I’ve simply accepted my uncharted way of life right now. I would love for life to go along with my plans or at the very least let me know what those plans are, but my blog itself is proof that life so often ignores our own plans for it. (For those just joining me – HI, so happy you are here- I started this little corner out of the need for an escape from heartbreak and all the future plans I had made.)
So what does this mean?
Well hopefully it means it is no longer a one way street for you guys. You have left such kind comments all along, never once questioning my lack of response. And I’m not sure if I could tell you how much that meant to me. Whether it was intentional or not, your kindness seemed to be a little bit of a light saying life can rarely be counted on, but friends could be. So thank you.
I have no real concrete plans for this little space and I’ll be the first to admit it scares me a bit, but one thing I have planned on is – growing. Growing and learning with my passion for photography. Learning is the one thing that I know will only have a positive impact on me, no matter what happens. Learning is life, in my eyes.
And to show you how much I always think of my w h y, here’s why I wrote this: I don’t have an answer. No magic tutorial or tips for getting for the awkward 20 somethings. I just want to be honest and hopefully connect with someone else who stumbles across it and struggling with their why – I get it.
Here’s to those awkward stages of life that give us a swift kick and make us stumble back a bit. And here’s to also getting right back up.