Lately

15 August, 2016

Kelsey

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  • The number of times that I question what I am doing in life or if I am making the right decisions a ridiculously high amount. How frustrating it is to constantly second guess ourselves and be the first to fault any decision we think about making. I wish that it were easier to tell ourselves, “you know what, this WILL work”. The road may be bumpy, but never give up.

    • So well said Mckenzie! I think that’s what so frustrating is that we constantly knock ourselves down before we try or before we even do fail. I’m definitely practice some self cheerleading this week. Thank you so much for reading sweet girl! xo

  • I hope you manage to get through this! Although… I am kind of stuck there to, you know, in the land of letting down some expectations I am not quite aware of and, quite frankly, which are not imposed by anyone really.
    The paradox of this situation is that I end up not doing what I want because it is useful and not doing what is useful, because I am too busy pondering over things I do want to do and denying myself the pleasure.
    Not quite sure how to solve that dilemma. Honesty does sound like a great idea. Maybe some chocolate cake and champagne too? Although that may not be a feasible every day solution in the long run!

    • YES. I found myself doing the exact same thing. I was focusing on stuff that in hind sigh doesn’t really matter nor was it any help at all to me. I’m in on the chocolate and champagne though 🙂 Thanks so much for reading Aleksandra! I always love seeing your responses in this little corner of the internet. xo

  • I’ve always loved your writing Kelsey but this post really struck a core, very real and vulnerable. Life is not about our social media feeds or pretty blog photos but what is happening in real life. I know this uncertain time in your life feels a bit scary but I’m with you to always learn and grow 🙂

    Last year I was unhappy with my office job and my lack of creative future. I knew I loved film and when I realised that, the hard work and passion followed. A little exercise you can do is write down things you love doing and a list of skills you’re good at, it’s a fun way to see which direction you could go down and see where your passions may lie. Life is about experiences, learning new things but most of giving things a try, even if we fail 🙂 I know you will be amazing, whatever you choose do you!

    Hanh | hanhabelle

    • Reading your reply Hanh quite literally brightened my spirits in one swoop. I’ve always admired your little corner of the internet so to hear you say you were in the same spot makes me feel like I’m in very good company. I saved this exercise and am going to try it out! PS your films are always so s t u n n i ng. xo

      • Aww thank you! So glad we can support each other online 🙂 xx

  • Jen

    As a teacher, I strongly agree with your perspective re: learning, and I appreciate your consistent focus on the ‘why’. 🙂 Navigating through my 20s has certainly been interesting — extremely difficult, but I like to focus on the excitement of the difficulty. I am hoping that there’s a massive shift with my 30s, ha, but I still (fortunately) have about halfway to go!

    Though your blog is definitely a pretty space, it has been and continues to be more than that, which is why I enjoy visiting so much! This is dorky, but reading your blog makes me feel like we would be good friends, haha. And that’s how I would like my readers to feel.

    Hope you start to figure things out and have fun figuring them out, Kelsey! xx

    Jen | affecionada

    • Not dorky at all sweet girl! I feel as though we would hit it off instantly and have so much to chat about on blogging to surviving our 20s. 🙂 Thanks so much for such a lovely comment. xo

  • I can relate to some of this right now. I love your writing style!

    • Thank you so much Marette! I hope you found a little bit of comfort knowing that you aren’t the only one. xo

  • Nessa Bee

    Hello my dear 🙂 i often read your Blog but as i am from Germany, i have never tried to leave a comment to a famous Blogger like you are (English is not so easy xD). But i feel so much more connected to you now that i just wanted to share some Love and tell you: its the same Deal everywhere. We are not born to know, we are born to grow. Great if that means to some to just follow their way – but its also great to search until you can do for a living what totally fills you. I wish you all the best and hope that youll share more posts like this in the future 🙂
    Lots of Love,
    Nessa

    • Nessa… I’m not sure if you know how much your comment means to me! The fact that you take the time to read my blog means the world to me, even though there is a bit of a language difference. (I’ve always wanted to be bilingual and am s o impressed with your ability.) Thank you so much for all of your support and my heart is so full now knowing even those across seas go through the same things. Thank you so much again sweet friend! xo

  • I totally relate to this post Kelsey and thank you for being so real and honest. Being in your 20 somethings is hard! Trying to figure it all out without any real direction is something I struggle with. I’m not really using my college degree either, but I do cherish the process of getting my degree and the friends I made along the way. As long as your are growing each day and doing a little of what you love, I think it’s a step in the right direction 🙂

    http://www.thebeautydojo.com

    • I love your perspective Andrea! And I couldn’t agree more. There are so many good things that can come out of not perfect circumstances. Thanks so much for your lovely comment sweet girl. xo

  • Awww I love posts like these. Such a cool way to connect with the author! I’ve been in the same position where I’m doubting what I’m doing but I just focus on what I love doing and let the rest work itself out!

    Xx
    http://www.inthegreyonline.com

    • Thank you so much Kierra! I think that’s the absolute best way to get through those really awkward years. xo

  • Thanks for sharing Kelsey! I’m currently going through a similar panic as I’m about to graduate from uni with a degree that’s not directly related to any job. So basically what I do with it is all up to me. And that scares the hell out of me. But I also have faith that somehow I’ll end up doing what I’m meant to do, even if it has nothing to do with my degree. xx

    http://www.shakespeareandsparkle.com/

    • What an exciting (albeit nerve wrecking time in your life!) I would love to hear how it goes and your journey 🙂 So happy to have found you Jenni! xo

  • I am literally in exactly the same boat as you right now, I have no idea where I want my life to go – apart from potentially having my blog grow so that can be my career. I’m always putting myself down and telling myself that I’m not good enough and stressing over the fact that I have no idea what to do with my life, forgetting that I am only 21 years old and I will get there one day.

    I think both your photography and blog are amazing and both show just how incredibly talented you are. I hope you figure out what you want to do with your life soon, as whatever you end up doing I can only imagine you’ll be amazing at! I know I don’t know you much at all, just what I see written here on your blog and posted over on your Instagram, but you honestly seem like the most genuine and kind person, so you deserve all the happiness in the world and a fun-filled life 🙂

    Hugs here from the UK xoxo

    Char | http://www.charslittleblog.blogspot.co.uk

    • Omygoodness I wish there wasn’t a big ocean in between us right now! You always have the kindest words so I feel as though I could say the same thing about you 🙂 I would have never known you were only 21, you seem to have so much more maturity than I ever had at that age. Here’s to both of us relaxing a bit and eventually meeting one day! Thank you so much for always leaving the kindest comments Charlotte. xo

  • Parents can get a little annoying witht the degree thing, it has been a little bad for me. It kind of sucks in a way because it makes us feel that we’re taking a wrong choice, but not at all, I think it’s better for them to see that we’re enjoying what we do even if it’s a totally different thing. The point is to feel good with yourself and what you do so that your life flows with ease. I hope things get better for you, don’t overthink things and try to stay as positive as you can. If you have an extra minute read The Laughing Heart by Charles Bukowski, this poem gets me through times like this 🙂 x

    | http://www.noirettediary.com |

    • I think the times have changed so much so to them they just aren’t used to degrees not being our main career. Whether that’s our fault or theirs I’m not sure! But you are exactly right 🙂 What matters is how we feel and we second guess that way too much! Oh just looked up the poem… LOVE IT. Thank you so much for sharing that, as well as, your lovely comment. xo

  • Before I started my university degree, I always wanted to be in art/photography, however, I was drawn into engineering then ended up being mechanical engineer. Art and mechanical engineer don’t really have anything in common, I guess it was mostly for making my parents happy as they were the ones who supported me. I am 30 and I don’t know what I am doing with my life or what I want to do. Things I want look impossible, however, I can’t know it without giving it a try but I am kinda afraid of giving a try. Just follow your heart, it will lead you to the direction you truly want. Sometimes you need to be selfish to make yourself happy, at least when you decide on what you really want to do, think about your happiness. Your photography is always beautiful and I’m sure you will be doing a great job with it. Looking forward to what comes next! x

    Ela BellaWorld

    • You sound literally just like me love 🙂 Having such different interests and passions can be a bit confusing! I think not being afraid to fail is definitely what holds me back and of course thinking it’s selfish to want something different. Thank you so much for you lovely comment sweet girl! xo

  • girl, this has been the narrative of my life for the past few years. Getting my degree and realizing that I had thousands of dollars in student debt for a career I didn’t want to pursue was terrifying to me. Thankfully blogging has slowly helped me get out of my rut and for a while, it was everything I wanted it to be. This summer has made me step back and re-evaluate where I want to go with it, and it scares me that I don’t have all the answers yet. What I do know is that I’m still happy working on my blog and that I finally have a mission statement and look that I can totally get behind and I’ll just take it as it comes from there. Basically, the point of this long comment is to say that I get where you are coming from, that you aren’t alone in not having answers, that I love your blog and can’t wait to FINALLY meet you in person next month.

    xo

  • As one of those people that didn’t end up doing what they majored it, don’t let a choice you made at 18 determine what the rest of your life will be! I LOVED my major. I had every intention of following that path, but like you said, life has something different in store for us sometimes. When I gradated college, the economy was awful. It was nearly impossible to find a job or even an internship. I searched for years trying to find a job in my major and even tried to go back to it last year only to be rejected because I had been out of the field for too long (that’s how much had changed in a short few years). I’ve been lucky enough to find a job that I love that uses some of the skills I learned in college and some along the way. No matter the path you take, never stop learning! Sometimes it means doing a job you hate to realize what you don’t like! Don’t be too hard on yourself. Your twenties are all about learning and figuring things out!

    Brittany | thechicette.com

  • I really really relate to this post and I think as non full time bloggers, we all go through this state of crisis 2-3 years in wondering why we spend so many late nights publishing blog posts for what seems like (sometimes) no end goal or reason in mind. It can definitely be hard, especially when your career aspirations are torn between the logical brain and the creative brain. I work in mental health with a psych degree so I experience similar conundrums on the regular. I really admire your honesty and I wish you all the best for the future! Whatever you decide to do, I know you will be great at it! xx

    Sarah | Bows & Pleats

  • Molly Bennett

    This touched my heart and I find myself in the same boat! You are rocking the blogger thing and I can’t wait to see what else is in store!